I am 27 years old and my addiction began when I was 14 years old. I have tried to be rid of this addiction for years. I have been in and out of treatment centers, detox facilities, AA and outpatient counseling, and I have been to jail twice. I could never understand why I always ran back to the bottle and the drugs. I had completely lost all hope.
On July 4, 2005, I had taken some pills and then went out to a bar with my co-workers. As usual, I was in a black-out. The next thing I knew, I was lying on the side of the road covered in blood and my car was smashed into a tree. The passenger, who was a very close friend of mine, was not wearing a seatbelt and was ejected from the car on impact, landing in the street unconscious By the grace of God, this man is alive today with no permanent damage. If he had died, I would’ve had to live with the guilt of killing my friend. I know God’s angels saved us that night. Unfortunately almost killing myself and someone else was not enough to stop my addiction.
Guilt only fueled my addiction even more. I became so damaged by painful memories, that using drugs to the extreme was the only way I could get through every day and night. When I didn’t think a bottom could get any worse, it did. I began to use drugs intravenously. By February 2010, I ended up back in detox with no job, homeless, and my family wanted nothing to do with me. I was utterly alone. I desperately needed a Mighty Savior.
I came to Faith Farm broken, afraid and confused. I couldn’t accept love from anyone, and I didn’t understand why all these women were hugging me telling me they loved me the first day I got here. It was God’s love flowing through them and pouring onto me. He knew I needed it. I did not have a relationship with God when I came here, so praying and asking for help was hard at first. But after surrendering and earnestly seeking Him, it’s like talking to a friend. Peace is what I have been searching for all these years. And, through prayer and His Word, He has truly brought peace to my heart. I no longer relive the painful memories of my past. God has set me free!
Thanks to God and Faith Farm, I can stand before you and say that I no longer have to believe the lies I have let Satan tell me for years. I am not lost and confused. I do have a purpose that is to worship the Lord. He has truly redeemed my life. He has brought me from being homeless with a needle in my arm to proclaiming my love for Him in a church by being baptized in His Name.
The destruction all started when I was 10. My best friend was killed in a DUI auto accident. I never could get over it. Age 12, I started drinking; age 13 smoking pot; age 14 was cocaine; age 15 dealing drugs and leaving home, never to return. Living on the edge, I had become a very violent person, hurting anyone who got in my way.
Coming from upstate New York and moving to Florida in 1993, I thought the move would change my life, not realizing I needed to change the inside of me before I could make the new outside work. I thought I was doing the right thing; working, not using cocaine, but still drinking and smoking pot. I went 7 years without using cocaine. Then it happened! I had a full-blown relapse.
During surgery for a broken back, I received 6 screws, 2 rods, and a titanium cage in my back. I was mad at the world and God. Why me? My mom told me that God has His reasons for all things to happen. Well, I was pretty mad at God. Four months after surgery; in 2004, my ex-wife caught me using cocaine. It was over. I left home only to get on the super-highway to hell.
I continued to get high until I ran out of money and picked up eight felonies and three misdemeanors. Off to jail I went, praise God! I spent ten months there still fighting the urge to use. God introduced me to some good people who told me, “Only God can set you free from the life that you are living.” It was suggested to me to go to Faith Farm Ministries. “That is where you will find what you need,” said Pastor Al and Counselor Nolli. I defeated the odds with the charges brought against me. I realized that I could have done 47 years in prison. It could by God at work – no money, no one to help me, except God.
After about a month of not being very nice to my fellow students, the pastor – my hero – sat me down. He let me know what time it was and asked if I wanted to continue with my program. He told me to stop trying to fix my life; God has already fixed it through the gift of His son, Jesus, and when I am ready to receive the grace He died for, my life would begin to change.
Two months later, a staff member approached me on a Monday morning and said, “I have a message for you. Your ex-wife called and said she was coming on Wednesday to pick you up to see your children!” I dropped to my knees in the hallway and cried uncontrollably for at least thirty minutes. God was delivering on the promise Pastor told me about.
Beach, FL- March 10, 2016–Faith Farm Ministries received a $ 32,000 grant from Health Foundation of South Florida that will go toward upgrading commercial kitchen equipment, increasing food service capacity and providing healthier menu options at the Ministries’ Fort Lauderdale Campus. read more →
The first group of men and women in an addiction recovery program anywhere … EVER, have earned up to 9 college credits each at the Boynton Beach campus of Faith Farm Ministries as they graduate from the free, long term residential recovery program. There are actually three courses within the recovery curriculum that are now accredited for 3 credit hours each: read more →
The Boynton Campus of Faith Farm Ministries dedicated their new bridge today … The old bridge, which was condemned above a year ago had to be replaced. Trusting God for the resources to pay a $1.14 Million bill, they proceeded in faith with construction and cut the ribbon today, “Dedicating To The Thousands Who Cross This Bridge To A Transformed Life.” Board Chair, Mike Brown, was 12 years old when he attended the dedication of the first bridge 50 years ago in 1954.
Faith Farm Ministries is a free, minimum 9 month, faith-based, addiction recovery program with residential services for more than 445 men and women who have lost control of their lives due to alcohol and/or illegal and pharmaceutical drug addictions. read more →
Bringing hope and encouragement to those who have addictions but want to find a way out with Christ’s help, Faith Farm Ministries and South Florida Bible College have united in an educational partnership that awards college credit for some life skills learned during addiction recovery. read more →
The Okeechobee Campus of Faith Farm Ministries, a long-time producer of quality beef cattle in Okeechobee, Fl, recently achieved the Beef Quality Assurance Certification, provided through a promotional offer from Boehringer Ingelheim and the national Beef Check Off Program. All full-time employees and program graduates involved in the daily cattle operation at Faith Farm passed multiple BQA Certification tests, making this the first drug & alcohol rehab center in the nation to achieve this certification. read more →
Fort Lauderdale, Florida – December 4, 2013 – The Fort Lauderdale campus of Faith Farm Ministries recently increased their Thrift Store’s “As Is” department with the addition of a new, beautiful arched awning. The new awning was the perfect remedy for creating the “highest and best use” of the available space. read more →